Another Blogger mentioned about his past growing up. I Figured I would touch upon the subject myself.
I grew up in several small towns in rural Georgia. I became sexually aware around age 12. I read every book i could get my hands on safely from the library. "Sexuality of the Human Male", "Sexuality of the Human Female", and some compilation book from an advice columnist who I cant remember. First thing I had realized was I was not really attracted to females, but During high-school I DID have a Girlfriend who I had sex with to keep up appearances.
In Middle school I learned to keep my head down and not draw attention to myself. I saw too many kids bullied because they were gay or because they were viewed as gay.
In High school, I was Tormented, Bullied, humiliated, and trod upon almost daily. I withdrew from everyone. Even now, I have trouble expressing myself to others. Being a pup actually helps me express myself much more than as a human. I remember one time where I was in a General assembly near the back in the auditorium. I was forced to sit next to two of my worse Tormenters. They actually had the audacity to feel me up, grab my groin, and suggest going to the restroom! I may be a bit of a slut now but back then That freaking Scared the CRAP out of me!. At the time this happened I was still a virgin in every sense of the word. I actually got up and ran out of there to hide!
I am still leery of anyone i meet. Thankfully I have my Owner and Mate. They keep me grounded, force me to express myself and to better myself.
I grew up in several small towns in rural Georgia. I became sexually aware around age 12. I read every book i could get my hands on safely from the library. "Sexuality of the Human Male", "Sexuality of the Human Female", and some compilation book from an advice columnist who I cant remember. First thing I had realized was I was not really attracted to females, but During high-school I DID have a Girlfriend who I had sex with to keep up appearances.
In Middle school I learned to keep my head down and not draw attention to myself. I saw too many kids bullied because they were gay or because they were viewed as gay.
In High school, I was Tormented, Bullied, humiliated, and trod upon almost daily. I withdrew from everyone. Even now, I have trouble expressing myself to others. Being a pup actually helps me express myself much more than as a human. I remember one time where I was in a General assembly near the back in the auditorium. I was forced to sit next to two of my worse Tormenters. They actually had the audacity to feel me up, grab my groin, and suggest going to the restroom! I may be a bit of a slut now but back then That freaking Scared the CRAP out of me!. At the time this happened I was still a virgin in every sense of the word. I actually got up and ran out of there to hide!
I am still leery of anyone i meet. Thankfully I have my Owner and Mate. They keep me grounded, force me to express myself and to better myself.
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